Far from it! There was a time when quite the opposite was true…
My reality looked significantly different than today. I was hustling as an overwhelmed and underpaid English and German teacher and freelancer translator, and I remember that even selling just a few low priced trainings on CDs felt like a gigantic achievement.
I celebrated. Then, I did the math, and had to face the harsh truth.
I was being paid peanuts, working all the time, having no time boundaries, doing a zillion things to satisfy my need for variety and creativy on the one hand, plus the one for security on the other.
All of a sudden, it made no sense to me anymore as to why I was driving myself crazy working so hard for so little.
I remember the exact moment when it dawned on me.
I had just come from a short trip to Istanbul, Turkey, with a friend of mine who was a full-time employee making 4-times more than me.
My inner chatter was relentless…
What the heck am I doing spending the money I don’t really have? I should be investing in business instead!
Uncomfortable as these thoughts were, I didn’t do anything about them at first. I just lacked the energy to even care anymore.
Then, a few days later, as I was uploading my video, shot with a $150 camera, to Youtube, I spotted a video from a couple of backpackers / online entrepreneurs / bloggers who were doing videos with a much better camera, staying in Istanbul for a month, renting a great airbnb studio, and working from there!
Darn it! I wanted that, too!
I couldn’t afford it, though, or so I thought. (Now, I know better!)
Funny enought, it happened on the same day my digital products on learning German were supposed to rock the online world and sell like hotcakes.
Needless to say, they didn’t.
Not even close!
I had high hopes for this launch, and it flopped royally.
So, here I was, sitting in my living room behind my little desk, staring at the poster on my wall.
Numb. Silent. Disillusioned.
What I was looking at was an image of a breath-taking exotic beach that 2.5 years prior I had made my inspiration.